In the moment

Bombay Bicycle Club - Lights Out, Words Gone

It was as if she was incapable of enjoying pleasurable experiencing as they were happening?


She could only enjoy things as an anticipation or as memory.

Being tempted when crocery shopping and coming home with stuff you don't feel like eating?



Finding the books everybody talks very highly about only to not read the last chapters or read them at all.




Making long nights and early morning at school for the feeling of satisfaction you'll have afterwards


Going to a festival you've been looking forward to and not really enjoying yourself.
When you get home and find a piece of confetti in your clothes, all you think of it is being one of the most marvellous night you've had.



I just finished watching the film'My last 5 girlfriends' and it was okay.
One of the girlfriends seems to not be capable of enjoying herself when things are actually happening.

I though that sounded weird only to realise i do the same thing sometimes.
Within the moment you just have to enjoy everything about it because that exact moment will never happen again.

When I was 14 I thought people in their twenties were old

Now that I'm in my twenties, people in their thirties are old.
This will change.

Florence + The Machine - Shake It Out


Last week i was the adult at home while my parents were on holiday.
Only problem was i didn't even have the guts make the rules clear to my brother.
That resulted in him spending all of our grocery money and the house being a mess.

Being an "adult" when you don't feel like one is one long awkward trip.
Oh and my lost year isn't making it any easier either!



it's amazing how many other like minded people there are on tumblr.
Images from fuck! i'm in my twenties

Florence + The Machine's new album 'Ceremonials' is out end this month.
Tonight you'll be able to watch Florence's last European show live as it stream from the website around 9.15 UK time.

Too bad i'll have to miss it because i have to be an adult and go to work...

Hello again

The Weeknd - Initiation






A late saturday night or an early sunday morning post, call it what you like because it's almost time to say bye to this weekend again.
How fast time can fly while your doing things.
Even when you're aren't doing anything your doing something and in my opinion time seems to go faster when your doing nothing!

I got a test for you.
You said you where my heart…but baby you can have it all,
there’s just something that I need from you.

'Initiation' is the new song off of the new The Weeknd mixtape 'Echoes of Silence…'
After the release of The Weeknd second EP 'Thursday' i thought i heard enough and that 'House of Balloons' was the only The Weeknd EP that could impress me.
The tracks from 'Thursday'sounded all the same to me, but this 'Initiation'is one beast of a song
I can't wait to hear the rest of the mixtape!




images taken from tumblr

Onvervreemdbaar

Ane Brun - Do You Remember.




Dit wordt ons niet ontnomen: lezen,
en ademloos het blad omslaan,
ver van de dagelijksheid vandaan.
Die lezen mogen eenzaam wezen.

Zij waren het van kind af aan.

Hen wenkt een wereld waar de groten,
de tijdelozen, voortbestaan.
Tot wie wij kleinen mogen gaan;
de enigen die ons nooit verstoten.

Ida Gerhardt



Aroha Silhouettes necklace can be purchased here

DJ MEHDI, Signatune from ROMAIN-GAVRAS on Vimeo.

I always think i'll get to see that artist next time, it's al right.
Picnic at night, Jagerland , Rauw and a melkweg date.
Four missed chances in four years.

R.I.P. Dj Mehdi


I need to start really living before i regret not doing that either.
Me typing that from my couch is worth an eye roll, but i am going to start living and doing, just watch this blog.
You will read good things in the near future.

Did you know the Romans didn't called anything blue?

Wild beasts - Bed of nails (acoustic session) by mouxlaloulouda


For example when they would look up to the sky they would say something like what a beautiful bronze sky instead of calling the sky blue.

I spend last evening watching four hours of QI and that's the only fact i remembered.
The rest will come back to me when i least expect it, just wait for it.

Thursday Cherrelle came to Rotterdam for a little visit and we ended the day at the Store opening of Monki.
Fun crowd and atmosphere but we could only stay for one hour, because i had to go to work.
We missed out on a thrilling game of bingo and who knows what else!
At least they had cute lollipop cakes and delicous cookies we managed to grab before leaving


As a birthday present Cherrelle gave me a garlic squeezer (a little joke) and a one line a day journal.
I had such a Barney Stinson moment realizing people do read my blog even though it's a random blog.



page out of Keep Calm and Carry On book i bought in London a few weeks ago.
A page to remember.

a brand new year...

A Very Potter Sequel - The Coolest Girl




Image taken from flickr via tumblr

September, the month of a new school year and pretty much the end of summer fun.
I'm turning 24 two days from now and i am pretty much dreading the whole obligated birthday party my mother is throwing me.
At least there will be cake!

The song is from A very Potter Sequel and i just love it and Bonnie Gruesen's voice.
If you don't know AVPS is the second Harry Potter musical made by StarKid Productions.
The first one was 'A Very Potter Musical' oh the songs, the jokes, the quotes Team Starkid all the way!

Always looking

Florence + The Machine - What The Water Gave Me

I haven't been sharing alot the past weeks, i blame work and not having enough to share.
Last week this time i was on my way to Lowlands where i was going to be working and experiencing the magical festival fun for free.
This image below was Lowlands art that caught my attention, very day of the death peaceful and sweet.


La danza la memoria


I can't wait for next year.
School wise i'm starting a whole new study next year in Amsterdam if all goes well.
I just need to find a room and that is difficult in Amsterdam, but i just want to go back home so i have faith all will go well.

Saturday i'm going on a four day trip to London with my mother and i can't wait.
The luxury of staying in a hotel instead of a tent hmm total bliss!


last image borrowed from tumblr

New Florence + The Machine sounds so good, i love it!

School's out for summer, school's out forever

Jamie xx - Far Nearer



Made the decission to take a year break from school to focus on me.
I even managed to make this decission without crying, so it must be a positive thing.

Time will tell.

Four days

Black Lips - Mad Dog by Gee2909

Thursday
On my way home from the amazing Warpaint concert I flipped trough the latest issue of Vice NL.


Friday
I got dressed up, went to the city and took a picture of myself in the H&M fitting room.


Saturday night/sunday morning
I snapped this picture while biking over the bridge after spending the night at my parents.


Sunday evening
The end of Metropolis Festival, a free festival and i found coins so it really was free for me.


The most i did for a while after the bang but i'm going to continue doing stuff!

The Anton Corbijn expo in Foam A'dam i'm going to visit this friday.
A little fun and a bit more art.

Everything else goes on when you're taking a break

The Weeknd - The Birds (Part 1) by The_Weeknd

For the past month and a week my life has been slow, boring and annoyingly fast.
May came to an end for July to begin and school ended with a bang.
As a blow between the ribs taking the breath out of my lungs for a minute came the news that i messed up school again and that i have to wait to hear if i can even fight to continue.
I cried and i'm leaving the rest of my tears for the good or the bad news about this subject.

Now about The Weeknd i have been listening to his amazing album before and after the bang in my life and i fell in love with it.
Check him out!

Reality check

Dry the River -New Ceremony live at The Lexington


Reality hits hard, so hard it left a mark on my face that only i can see.
I didn't went to Walk The Line after all because of three reasons.
1. i didn't have enough money
2. my concert buddy wasn't around i think he forgot about it, but i kind of expected that from him
3. third and biggest reason because i was too worried about school.

I have so many things to finish that i'm too scared to make a list because i honestly believe that would take up all my time. That's how much i have to do.

I can only hope, dream and work towards to when this, the last school term of my first year is over i will have something good to close it with.
No worries and feelings of self doubt just a positive accomplished feeling that i did it. The knowledge that i can do this and be good at it.

I'm leaving on a air plain

...in two weeks i'll be back again
Janelle Monáe ft. Deep Cotton - 57821

High summer contact

'Contact High' and 'Summer' are two songs that are in my ultimate summer songs list.
Too bad the sun isn't cooperating today...ah well only six day until i leave for my sunny holiday destination!


Stefany June-Summer






Architecture In Helsinki - Contact High

Weeks of mayhem

La Femme - Sur La Planche


The next weeks before my vacation i have to focus on getting my grades up.
Oh how busy, how very busy the next weeks are going to be

I'm tired, so tired of chasing the dream...

Cee-Lo Green Ft. Selah Sue - Please








Images taken from Tumblr

A new perspective

Beth Ditto - Do You Need Someone



As you can see from the lack of post i've don't have that much to share.
Lately i feel restless and unsatisfied with the way my life is going.


I went from living at home in the suburbs with it's own beautiful plus points and the silent surroundings

to my own place closer to the buzz of the city and city living


somehow i still managed to lock myself in from everything and everyone.
I'm giving myself until begin april to get back the little joys in my life.
Seeing friends, going to a carnival, visiting museums, spending some active time with my family, do things that involves other people.
Being on myself is nice but a big reason i feel this way is because i'm avoiding contact with people and new experiences.

Time to ruffle my hair, change my everyday glasses for a nicer frame and do stuff! That stuff can be classed as strange to some when it's really me being me not second guessing what people might thing.
It's time for stuff people, time for fun stuff.

I accept chaos. I don't know whether it accepts me.

Arthur






Seven simple rules of going into hiding:
one, never trust a cop in a raincoat.
Two, beware of enthusiasm and of love, both are temporary and quick to sway.
Three, if asked if you care about the world's problems, look deep into the eyes of he who asks, he will never ask you again.
Four, never give your real name.
Five, if ever asked to look at yourself, dont.
Six, never do anything the person standing in front of you cannot understand.
And finlly seven, never create anything, it will be misinterpreted, it will chain you and follow you for the rest of your life

Oh, sadness I'm your girl

Lykke Li - Sadness Is A Blessing acoustic at BBC 6Music

I didn't go to the museumnight after all, I stayed home instead with popcorn, chocolate milk and Brideshead Revisited on the BBC.
I learned that march fifth is also world book night, who would have though books had a night dedicated to them. They deserve a whole day, week or even a month if you ask me.

Sebastian Flyte I asked too much of you. I knew it all along,
really. Only God can give you that sort of love

Late nights out and about seem to become less my thing, you might understand how thrilled my bank account is.

Funny how another Lykke Li song seems to find it's way in a new post but i find her new album 'Wounded Rhymes' marvellous.
Not that i though a follow up Lykke Li album could have been anything else than that.


Source Lykke Li song

I'm blaming it on something

GLEE (New Directions) - Blame It (On The Alcohol)


Ever since yesterdays post i feel as if i have been drinking but i haven't had a drink for a while now. It's all because of the massive lack of sleep i've had that is giving me this feeling.
Watched another fun episode of Glee yesterday morning with the above amazingly good cover of the Jamie Foxx featuring T-Pain song 'Blame It'.
I love how Kevin, Mark, Naya and Amber voices blend perfectly in this song.
Going to bed in a while because i need to be fresh and sunny around noon again!

Today it's voting day and i'm still not sure which party i'm going to vote for.
I'm sure the decision will come to me when i'm in the booth with that red pencil in my hand so no worries there.
Worries i will have after i voted because for the second time i choose to work being one of the people in the voting bureau this means i'm going to be one of the people counting the votes.

Last year i was a little disappointed how people voted but you can't smoulder peoples choices ans opinions.
I hope the voting results and all that will come after the voting will be a positive progress point in the Netherlands.