Chained pick me up!

Thursday was a shitty day.
I was told that the realistic and best thing to do was to quit school and try again in september.
I wasn't expecting that to happen for the second time but hey i'm a naive bunny and combine that with me being chaotic lil' old me isn't good.

Anyway after cooling down at my favourite place in the city the library, i wanted to spend some money.
Totally therapeutic of course so i called up Mex and we went to Primark.

The therapeutic part didn't really help because of the lack of things worth falling in love with or even liking.
I ended up buying two very practical things:
a top with some lace detailing and a strapless bra.
After that Mex wanted to look for nude pumps at Zara and there i saw the chained pick me up!

I love my new bag and after adding an old necklace i bought at Primark a while ago to the bag i love it even more!

Those little songbirds

After watching the first episode of season 4 of Skins i saw the Glee promo
and i remembered reading about it earlier this week so i went searching.
I found out what Glee was and ended up watching 5 episodes of the show.
Gosh i love Glee!

Beyonce vs Katrina and the Waves from ronnie rowcotsky on Vimeo.

And he's not really in a wheelchair.

They're SO creative!

I loved Fanny Pack on season two of America's Best Dance Crew.
Those booty pops (4:15 above) my goodness, another skill i don't master but that aside, how can you not love them!

"LOLZ WTF VAMPIRE WEEKEND< THEY SOUND LIKE GOFFZ"

Vampire Weekend from Speaker TV on Vimeo.

I quoted the above on April 17 2008 because i thought they were average while everybody else seemed to bum them like crazy.
After hearing a Youtube version of 'White Sky in Jan. '09 and i kind of melted.
Then came summer and i started listening to Discovery (VW's Rostam Batmanglij side project) and the first Vampire Weekend album again and i started to like them.
'Contra' is such a good second album, i would pay to see them now!

GGGRRRRR!

It's Tiger/cinema time again and i want to see some films this week!
But i have to hit the books because i got a lot of tests...so: Go luck!

For now i have the following films on my list:
-Fantastic Mr. Fox
-A Single Man
-J'ai tué ma mère

Music to make the soul float higher

Final Fantasy
I had to work and work being sort staffed due to it being vacation time and me being the caring person i am i missed his august show in Tivoli Utrecht but yaay for March 22!

good music!

Rachel Unthank & The Winterset: Blue Bleezin Blind Drunk
I was searching if i missed them but i didn't and i'm so happy they're coming April 16 ^_^

A man oh gosh a man.

Tom Ford, the man that once was captain of The House of Gucci, YSL and after that started his own Fashion House has creating quite a buzz with his directing début.

Colin Firth playing the handsome charmer again!
I own the BBC serie of Pride Prejudice and fell in love with Mr. Darcy even with all his pride and after that i only saw Mr. Firth as the well spoken but a bit uptight British gentleman in films. Nice but this is very a nice change!

Also Nicholas Hoult Yaay!
His rol in 'About a Boy' was cute but a little bit annoying.
I started liking him after i saw how well he dried up in 'Skins'
('Skins' season four is starting again btw, only the season 3 cast is a little less screwed up then the season's 1+2 cast, really makes you feel like they could do better but i'm sure I'll still watch it)

A Single Man

Art!

Yesterday i woke up feeling i needed to snap out of my long sleep.
I wanted to dress up, jump on the train and enjoy the company of others in amsterdam or something, so i searched for someone willing to join me on my impulsive day of fun!
Friend M had to work, i think it was a too early message for friend C and friend A was awake and willing so i found my buddy for the day!
After brainstorming we figured out it was going to be a day of Art at the Kunsthal

I fell asleep right after the brainstorm so it became a 45minute art thing experiencing Made in Holland, Dutch Inventions and The Secret Life of Syrian Lingerie

After that it was time for an art film!
The four times Golden Calf 2009 winning film Nothing Personal.
I read about the film and somehow expected it to be boring.
It´s about a woman who moves to a different country without money and doesn't talk about her past, but it wasn't boring at all.
You don´t know why she picked up and left like that, but somehow it´s satisfying not knowing.

Chocking on dust

Okay 'New Moon' wasn't good.
I spent the whole film talking to my bud Max via msn.
Sometimes about the film but only when i wanted to share how weird i thought a scene was.

I'm sorry but i wouldn't spend my money to see that film in the cinema.
I love the vampire myth, i might be taking it too serious, but c'mon that's not what Bram Stoker wrote about!

Okay enough about the above, now it's time for some good British humour!
And yeah his American accent is okay but yay no fake accent in this one!
Or a inner 'It's tearing me apart/giving me nightmares'
romance about people in lust for 130 minutes.
That and the weird storyline, darn that really became annoying.
Aha...enough tween tickle talk!
Go see the film if you like/understand British humour!

"I'm really sorry but you just can't work here anymore."
"...I'm a volunteer"
"Well i'm giving you back your free time"

"wow the story line was more jacked up than Mily Cyrus's teeth..

..It was a like 80 minutes of Jacob don't leave me and Bella I want you, But Jacob your so sexy but it wont work. Man I thought Disney made such cheesy love stories but I would now take my chance with Disney. A movie about werewolves and Vampires and after two movies we only know about 4 cases where the creatures actually bit or killed someone. I see this franchise wheels coming off just like harry potthead. I mean they are making movies based on the success of the first one and just hoping people are dumb enough to use their experience of the first movie to sell tickets. A rip off and I'm glad I didnt pay to see the first or the second movie and if you ask me, movies about Vampires and Werewolves shouldn't be more that 5 minutes of love scenes cause when you mix over that time you run into a pointless movies about vampires and werewolves I mean why add vicious creatures if you dont let them be vicious. Next some idiot will do a love story between a zombie, a human, and a ninja turtle. 2/5 stars."

That was one person's opinion on 'New Moon' that made me lol.
Mind you i do like Miley!

So i'm feeling down and need some easy breezy tween flick and after watching 'Angus, thongs and perfect snoggin' i wanted to see some more easy tween films.

Check in later for my opinion.
I found the first Twilight film a bit weird.
Even Harry Potter and Narnia films aren't that weird, but i finished it and it left me feeling...yep a bit weird.

Can they really here me up there?

> Connected, feel free to talk now
You: hi
You: aha...
Stranger: hi
You: aah reaction!
Stranger: where from?
You: you
You: holland
Stranger: usa
Stranger: what is there to do in holland?
You: not much
You: it's been cold so you can't do that much
You: how's in there?
Stranger: how cold?
You: let's check
You: tody is been -2
You: 15 f
Stranger: warmer today
Stranger: around 10, I think
Stranger: what is 40 f?
You: oh wait
You: 28 f
You: 40 f is about 3 celcius i think
You: i'm very bad when it comes to numbers
Stranger: it happens
You: i'm still learning
Stranger: fair enough
Stranger: u go to church?
You: not really, i don't really believe in god
Stranger: why not?
You: i believe in something but not in the church
Stranger: me too
Stranger: I don't put my faith in the church
You: are anything religous?
You: budha
You: ?
You: that's a temple
Stranger: I put my faith in Christ, not a religion
Stranger: it is a relationship
Stranger: much different than religion
You: has it always been like that for you?
Stranger: no
Stranger: I didn't make that choice until i was 18
Stranger: best choice i made though
You: and your parents were okay with that?
Stranger: sort of
Stranger: they were more into religion
You: i don't believe in god because i was raised to believe and after a while you start questiong it
Stranger: no problem with questioning
Stranger: disciples questioned Jesus all the time
You: they never put that kind of pressure on you?
Stranger: no
Stranger: they wanted me to go to church, but not much more
You: my mother once said go to bible kamp or you can't go to you friend next week
Stranger: I felt God's call on me and that made me want to change
You: your parents dealed with it the rifht way
Stranger: your mom meant well
Stranger: the Bible does have the answers
Stranger: problem is
Stranger: some people twist it to what they want, not what it says
Stranger: Can I ask you some questions to see what you believe?
You: do you have an example of a part if the bible that has been twisted?
You: oh sure ask me
Stranger: do you believe that Jesus lived?
You: sometimes
Stranger: well, history documents that he truly lived on this earth.
You: i do catch myself praying to the god and jesus i believed in as a child
Stranger: do you believe Jesus was a crazy nut job?
You: no, there were people that believed in jesus
Stranger: by the way, don't stop yourself from praying, God wants to hear your heart
Stranger: so, if Jesus wasn't crazy, then what he said must have some truth to it.
Stranger: I believe everything He said is truth.
Stranger: do you believe you sin?
You: no
You: i don't know
Stranger: do you ever do something wrong
Stranger: something Jesus would not want you to do?
You: yeah i do, but the fact that god made man out of his own image
You: who says god doesn't have bad things?
You: yeah i know adam and eve
Stranger: I can only go by the Bible with my answers
You: but god also knew about shame
Stranger: Adam and Eve were created without sin
Stranger: they sinned after creation
You: so he knew what he didn't give could wound up with man
You: they sinned in god's perfect world
Stranger: God gave adam, eve, you and me a will, a chance to decide if we would follow him
Stranger: all the time
Stranger: we all choose to not follow him sometimes
Stranger: that is sin
You: for everybody?
Stranger: without a choice, we would be robots
Stranger: I think so, everybody
You: but if we chose not to follow we become sinners
Stranger: all have sinned and came short of God's glory
You: what good is the choice then?
Stranger: do you have friends?
Stranger: family?
You: we live the perfect live with good and go to heaven of live a perfect live without good and go to hell?
You: that's not fair either
You: yes i have friends and family
You: why?
Stranger: what if you made them like you?
Stranger: would it be the same?
You: like me as in cloning or making them like everything i like and dress like i do?
Stranger: sure
Stranger: God wants you to CHOOSE Him. He won't force His will on you
Stranger: He loves everyone, but He knows some won't choose Him
Stranger: Adam and Eve asked forgiveness and they got it
Stranger: just like we can
Stranger: Jesus had to pay that price on the cross
Stranger: the penalty for sin is death
Stranger: without blood there is no forgiveness of sins
Stranger: Jesus had to leave heaven to pay that penalty as a man on earth
Stranger: the offer is on the table, we just need to accept it
Stranger: I don't live the perfect life, beleive me
Stranger: but i have forgiveness
You: because you chosen god
Stranger: yes.
Stranger: The bible says "all who call on God's name shall be saved"
Stranger: I did.
Stranger: I felt different the moment I made the choice
Stranger: and I have for 20 years now
You: i don't want to chose, i just want to life
Stranger: imperfections and all
Stranger: i understand
You: i don't believe in the glory and power of god
You: i get up and see the news and think great that again
Stranger: but can I tell you something else I truly believe?
You: i don
Stranger: man makes the world the way it is.
You: i don't want to chose for something that can give me something more, i feel that it has to chose me
Stranger: they choose something other than what Christ has to offer
You: indeed they do
Stranger: The bible also says God calls us to Christ
Stranger: I think you finding me on here and having this chat is God making you that offer
Stranger: that may be Him choosing you if you want to think of it that way
Stranger: but you still have to accept the offer
You: i know
You: but it has to feel right
You: i need more signs
Stranger: Can I share something esle I believe
You: i need to feel that i'm ready
You: sure
Stranger: i understand.
Stranger: I believe in a real Heaven, and a real Hell
Stranger: those who choose Christ will be in heaven forever
Stranger: those who don't will be in Hell
Stranger: I don't want to scare you
Stranger: because that isn't why you should choose
You: i know
Stranger: you should choose because you want Christ and what He has to offer
Stranger: but if a person dies without Christ, they will be in Hell
You: but the fact that it's either heaven or hell is something that;s part of the decision.
You: it's black and white and there is no grey
Stranger: true
You: sometimes you just need grey around you
Stranger: but grey can just be the fog hiding the truth
You: haha that's a good way of putting it
Stranger: I work with teens in my church and you are a lot like them
Stranger: lots of questions
You: i've had this conversation before and i don't know any more
Stranger: you don't want your parent's religion
Stranger: have you ever read the bible to see what the truth was?
You: i moved out and my roommate is religous and last year i met about 4 other religous people and this is all i don't know
Stranger: the gospels: matthew, mark, luke, and john, are really good in showing the plan
Stranger: and who He is
Stranger: Christ is still a great option for you
You: my parents did force me so i really felt good with religon
Stranger: the relationship with the God who created the world is an amazing experience
You: they still want me to go to church but i'm not ready yet
Stranger: you can pray to Him without being in Church
You: it's like i'm lying and he knows it and i don't want that yet
Stranger: Praying and reading doen'
You: this is so weird, i started 2009 with people talking to me about god and now this
Stranger: doesn't commit you to anything either
Stranger: I think it is a God thing
You: yeah start small ..
You: haha it must be
Stranger: He is chasing you
You: my roommate being my roommate was a big woah
Stranger: I read books by a guy Ravi Zachariah
Stranger: he calls God the "hound of heaven"
Stranger: he never gives up on youi
Stranger: He keeps putting people in your path who care for Him
You: what kind of book does he have?
Stranger: he writes apologetics
Stranger: logical explanations for Chrisitanity
Stranger: Lee Strobel is a good author too
Stranger: He writes a book "the case for christ" and "a case for faith"
Stranger: He was an agnostic and during his research about a book on religion
Stranger: He started his relationship with Christ
Stranger: your story sounds similar to his
You: i should look into that
Stranger: the bible is the best book to read though
You: i need to start slow
You: i have one
Stranger: Ravi is pretty deep
You: yeah i heard
You: found a youtube film
You: i'm not ready for that
Stranger: Lee is an easier read
Stranger: S
Stranger: Strobel might be a better start
You: found the book on dutch amazon
Stranger: what do u think?
You: i think i should start with the bible before i read that book
Stranger: a agree
Stranger: I agree, sorry
You: the comments say that it's well reseacherd but that's not enough
You: typo's can happen;)
Stranger: your room mate might be able to help too
You: yeah she invited me around her church a few times but i don't know
Stranger: His word is a light unto your path
Stranger: getting to a good sunday school class might help you learn more too
You: i went to a few youth groups untill i was about 15 and stopped it all because i just didn't felt right
Stranger: Pray that God will lead you to His truth, not someone else's opinion
Stranger: He will show you what you need to see if you truly seek it
Stranger: sometimes people are well meaning, but stupid in what they do
You: my cousin still goes and she and my aunt are church going christians and they asked me along but the feeling that i'm lying
Stranger: why lying
Stranger: ?
You: i'm in a church and everybody is listening and understanding the service and there's me
You: i don't believe in my head i even catch myself mocking everything
Stranger: I think you would be surprise at what is under some of the masks people wear to church
Stranger: truth is
Stranger: most christians have some bad stuff happening
Stranger: but to show it means you aren't a "good" christian
You: and i know that's wrong, i believe enough to know that that's not the way to think in a place decicated to god
Stranger: keeps us from being real with each other
You: i don't like that feeling of lying before god
Stranger: remember, being a christian isn't about doing right and wrong
Stranger: I still do wrong as a christian
Stranger: being a christian is having a real relationship with Jesus Christ
Stranger: I won't be perfect until heaven
Stranger: I can only try to be better, and closer to Him each day
You: it's a working progress
You: for that realionsship to work you have to respect god and i fail at that point
Stranger: Respect will grow with relationship
Stranger: God knows where you are, and what you are thinking
Stranger: and He wants you anyhow
Stranger: imperfections and all
Stranger: He can/will help you be better in Him
Stranger: I get angry with God
Stranger: and I tell Him
Stranger: and He is so patient and kind in teaching me why
Stranger: even though I am angry
Stranger: THAT is the relationship part
Stranger: by the way, why do you say you don't respect him? I'm curious
Stranger: did something happen to make you feel that way?
You: hmm
You: no it's more
Stranger: personal?
You: no not that maybe you'll find it even not that bad but i say goddamn and don't feel bad about it, sometimes i curse everything about being a christian and just feel relieved
Stranger: Peter cursed whe Jesus was being led to the cross
Stranger: what is the difference?
You: you learn not to use the lords name in vain and maybe it's a 'rebel' thing but i used it and don't feel bad when i do
Stranger: sure, but that is one example of a sin
Stranger: it isn't something that will kick you out of heaven
You: haha
Stranger: Jesus said it is sin when you hate someone, or think evil toward them
Stranger: I think we all fall into that once in a while
Stranger: God won't make you perfect just because you are a christian, He wants you to work through stuff
Stranger: it makes you grow
Stranger: in him
Stranger: "as you think it, you do it" the bible says
You: there is so much for me to work out
Stranger: no, not really
Stranger: don't put pressure on yourself
Stranger: starting a relationship doesn't take effort
Stranger: and He is the one who will mold your heart
Stranger: I can honestly say, in 20 years He has never led me the wrong way
Stranger: I may not have understood it at the time, but it was always right
You: this conversation happening is something that i didn't expect
Stranger: God doesn't give you what you expect all the time
You: i just finished wathcing Eli stone and though let's try chatroulleete again haha
Stranger: I wondered if I would have this talk with someone eventually
Stranger: Looks like we are both part of a God thing
Stranger: You know what would be amazing?
You: seem like it haha
Stranger: I will probably never talk with you again here on earth
Stranger: I would love it if you came up to me in heaven and told me you changed your life because of this
Stranger: that is an eternal thing
You: yeah probably not..this conversation was one out of 3200
Stranger: remember,
You: amazing
Stranger: God is "the hound of heaven"
Stranger: have I changed your opinion at all?
You: somewhat, i feel differtent now
Stranger: how so?
You: a bit more relaxed...like the people who stopped me last year really where there for a reason
You: you don't start talking to someone in a train about god
You: or give your email to someone you started talking about god
Stranger: I see your point.
Stranger: God doesn't stop working with us
Stranger: or chasing after us
You: i wanted change this year and i somehow found a way to change
You: he just gives you the tools
Stranger: are you saying you made a decision?
You: haha yes i did
Stranger: AWESOME!!!!
Stranger: The bible says all of heaven rejoices when one comes to a relationship with Him
Stranger: I have to go.
You: i hope i can follow trough but if it's the right thing to do i will get there if not next month it could be a in august
Stranger: you have helped a sick guy today
You: i'm welcome
Stranger: God will keep chasing you
You: and you've helped a questioning girl;)
Stranger: I will keep praying for u
Stranger: God knows who you are
You: thank you and thanks for this conversation
Stranger: I'm just one begger showing another where to buy bread
Stranger: wher to get bread
Stranger: beggers don't buy
Stranger: oops
You: hahah i'm sure
You: i needed something more today i found it
Stranger: I am glad He used me.
Stranger: God bless you!!!!
Stranger: and He will!!!

Let it grow sugah

I don't like relaxing my hair because it hurts and growing out the chemicals takes a year or more.
At the moment my hair is natural and that means it's a bit 'nappy' but i'm happy and even proud with my little curls!
I don't have good hair and to be honest i think i'm going to get some serious weave done between now and February.
Synthetic weave that is, i'm not really into wearing previous attached hair.
People forget that when you weave your real hair can rest under the fake layer *winkwink*

2010 minus 1 festival

Due to financial issues, that i can't translate ,Festival De Beschaving is taking a break in 2010. Sad news, but i'm sure it's going to be amazing in 2011!

Because it's cold outside

The snow just keeps on falling and my black chuck t's are getting a mouthfull of the white stuff.
After the lost week of sickness i went to Lille and didn't see the Zara boots i wanted.
Didn't see them in London either so i decided to carry on searching in Rotterdam.
Monday i finally found one precious shoe hidden high on display shelf and after searching through the pile of shoes on sale i found the other one in my size.
I could say i feel guilty towards the person who hid the boots, but i don't...sorry!

To match the shoes i found the following bag on sale bij H&M, i was waiting for the bag to enter the sale and was happy when it did!

Heir, heir...

This is the Kelly by Hermes. The big brother of the Birkin and of all the it-bags in the line, it’s a classic full of history. I never thought much of it until I saw it on a friend’s arm. Marvelously weathered, perfectly worn in, she got it from her great grandmother.
Family histories can be so charming…
Do you have any family heirlooms?

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Hiya 2010!

Have a wonderful, beautiful, loving, honest, memorable, amazingly great 2010!